Sent: Saturday, September 09, 2000

Title: hidden truths
Author: Susan Frankovich
E-mail: susanf@ticnet.com
Classification: poem, Mulder's POV
Spoilers: Anasazi/The Blessing Way/Paper Clip
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Disclaimer: These characters belong to each
other, not me.

Mulder tries to process his father's death...
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hidden truths
by susan frankovich
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you did it again, dad

you kept the truth
from me

how many times does
that make now?

i've lost count

all the secret phone calls
and mysterious trips

you never told me the
truth about them

all the late night meetings
all the times i asked
you about Samantha

you never told me the
truth about them either

all i wanted was for you
to love me and let me
be a part of your life

but you kept yourself
hidden from me

were you that ashamed
of me or was it your own
life that you detested?

even as you lay dying
in my arms you wouldn't
tell me the truth

you wouldn't help me
to understand

you asked for my
forgiveness
but what was i
supposed to forgive?

you kept the truth
from me, dad

and now i'll never
know how you really
felt about me

and i'll never know
what you really did
with your life all
those years

you did it again, dad

you kept the truth
from me and left me
with nothing

just like always

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