Sent: Thursday, July 20, 2000
Author: Agent L
Classification: S, Mulderangst, MT
Rating: Probably PG, except for one really bad word
Spoilers: Requiem, of course
Distribution: Archive anywhere, but keep my name and
e-mail attached please!
Disclaimer: To Chris Carter, David Duchovny, Gillian Anderson, and Fox:
I know they're not mine, and no money, gifts or even chocolate would be
expected or accepted for this.
Summary: Mulder is abducted, but the experience isn't quite what he
Author Notes: There's no mention of Scully's pregnancy here, although
Scully does make an appearance. I just couldn't find a good place to
work it in.
Feedback: Yes, please! LHoward388@aol.com.
There is no truth here, Scully. Only more lies.
The so-called spaceship that we traveled in is a government
issue stealth project -- made with alien technology, no doubt --
but definitely produced right here in the good ol' US of A.
As soon as we were airborne, I was separated from the others,
and a group of government goons wearing ski masks strapped
me down to a gurney. The blood from Goon #2's nose was as
red as the stripes in the flag. And I'm pleased to report a couple
of those guys will be walking with a limp for a day or two. I didn't
see much of anything but those WWF rejects, since they threw a
hood over my head as soon as I was securely tied down.
Judging by the brief flight time and the bumpy landing, I'm guessing
we're still on Planet Earth, although I have no idea where. They
left the hood on as I was carried off the plane -- again by humans,
unless aliens use colorful four-letter words and wear Old Spice
cologne -- and put me wherever I am now. That was
at least an hour ago by my calculations.
The hood muffles any outside noise, but as far as I can tell
there's nothing and no one in the immediate vicinity to make
any sound, and the room has probably been soundproofed,
as well. That would explain why they didn't bother to gag me,
in addition to this medieval torture device over my head.
It's like being trapped inside a Brillo pad except it smells like
stale sweat instead of dish soap.
The gurney would seem to be a standard issue piece of psych
ward equipment -- basic wrist and ankle restraints, supplemented
by several tough leather straps to hold my arms and legs down.
After rubbing my skin raw in several places and nearly dislocating
my shoulder, all the while suffocating under this stifling hood, I
have finally conceded that for now, at least, resistance is indeed
futile... unless I start channeling Harry Houdini.
With nothing else to do, I lie here and think. Mostly about you,
Scully. I wonder what caused those fainting spells and hope you're
okay. God knows I never would have left you if I hadn't thought
the activities in Bellefleur had something to do with what was
happening to you.
But at least I was able to protect you from this.
Maybe now that they have me, you'll be safe.
"Safe, Mr. Mulder? No one is safe."
The voice startles me out of my maudlin reflections. Some
special agent *I* am, not even hearing the bad guy approach.
I don't recognize him immediately, but there's the trace of an
accent. Dutch? German?
What the hell...? He's reading my mind.
"No, Mr. Mulder. I'm *in* your mind. I am communicating
telepathically. Something you have some experience in, I understand."
"I was a receiver, not a sender. And I no longer have that ability."
I try to raise my head, feeling at a distinct disadvantage, trapped
on my back like an overturned turtle. "Who are you? What am
I doing here?"
He ignores both questions. "You always had the ability, both to
send and receive. You still do, but it's been altered. Harder to
access. You have to let go, free your mind from its artificially
imposed constraints. Reach out and embrace the cosmic energy..."
"What do I look like, Luke Fucking Skywalker?"
Something clamps down over my mouth and the voice fills my
skull. "You seem to forget who is in control here, Mr. Mulder.
But it's nice to see that legendary bravado isn't exaggerated."
I start to struggle, the cloth from the hood clogging my nose,
unable to get air.
"Tell me what you want."
I scream against his hand as my lungs pound frantically against
my chest, demanding air. I try to turn away but he tightens his grip.
*I can't BREATHE --*
The obstruction is instantly gone.
"See? You just needed the proper motivation."
A chill runs down my spine and I have a sudden urge to
scream again. Cold sweat soaks my armpits as I realize for
the first time how completely helpless I am. A bug writhing
on a pin, a frog stretched out for dissection.
*If this is one of my nightmares, I'd like to wake up now, please.*
A soft chuckle.
*So glad I can amuse you.* Suddenly I remember Billy Miles
and the group from Bellefleur. *Where are the others? The people
I was with?*
"They are safe."
*I thought you said no one was safe.*
A chuckle. "Touche, Mr. Mulder. They are in a different area,
undergoing the usual procedures. We have not yet decided
what to do with you."
I should probably be scared by the threat implied in his casual
comment, but his arrogance in presuming to decide my fate just
pisses me off. This isn't an abduction, it's kidnapping, plain and
simple, and he's just a man -- with an extraordinary talent, granted --
but still just a man, playing a sick game.
*What do you want from me?*
"Nothing. Absolutely nothing. You were simply in the wrong
place at the wrong time. Yet again. You're quite a nuisance
*You make me sound like a mosquito.*
I've been put neatly in my place in the universe, it seems.
His footsteps start to move away.
*Could you at least take the hood off?*
More silence. Apparently he has the ability to block his
thoughts from me when he chooses. Or maybe fear and
anger are interfering with my reception, like some lightning
storm in the brain.
*Please...?* My stomach heaves at the idea of begging for
some small favor from this man, but if I can see, maybe I can
figure out how to get out of here.
"And that's why I won't remove the hood, Mr. Mulder."
I think I'm going to die here, Scully.
That thought in itself is nothing new. It's occurred to me more
than once over the past seven years in a variety of situations,
generally accompanied by a calm acceptance, a willingness to
sacrifice myself to the truth. My quest...My choice. I've been
aware of the risks, although it might not seem that way to those
who would try to pull me away from the edge of the abyss.
But I've always thought I'd go out fighting, face to face with
my adversary -- not with a whimper, but a bang, so to speak.
I don't want to be an inconvenience...an afterthought, left in
storage like some old piece of furniture. I don't want to
He came back a little while ago. Maybe an hour, maybe a day...
I'm losing track of time. There was a stinging in my neck, just
above my collar bone, and the numbness started almost
immediately, like novocaine at the dentist. The painful tingling
quickly moved into my arms and legs, as if my whole body
were asleep. It's hard to swallow now, and my lungs feel tight --
breathing is a focused effort rather than a natural act. I can
only hope he measured the exact dosage -- assuming he
wants to keep me alive.
A few minutes later I felt the release of pressure on my body
as the straps were removed, but I couldn't even lift a finger...
literally. I think I preferred the restraints. As painful as they
were, at least I could feel something, I could struggle, which
gave me some small hope of escape, however unlikely.
The drug seems to only affect me physically, however.
I can still think clearly, as much as I'd like to be unconscious
right now. But they left the hood on, so I'm assuming my
chances of being released are still good. If they were going to
kill me, it wouldn't matter if I could identify them, right?
The hood is yanked off and a bright light shines directly into
my face. I automatically try to turn my head, but the muscles
in my neck remain locked, so I close my eyes tightly in an
attempt to escape.
"Turn the light off." The South African -- Darth Vader without
the wheeze -- gives the order to someone else in the room.
His companion shuffles over to obey. I sense the change in
light behind my closed eyelids and open my eyes cautiously.
The room is dimly lit now, but my eyes still hurt.
*What did you to do me?* At least I can still communicate,
and I suppose our previous "conversation" was to prepare
me for this.
"It's an animal tranquilizer, Mr. Mulder, very effective on
humans in the proper dose. We'll be monitoring your vital
signs closely in case of respiratory distress, and your - uh -
physical needs will be taken care of. You wanted the
*This isn't quite what I had in mind.* I peer up at him through
the darkness, unable to see much more than a shadowy face
and pale hair -- light blonde or white. He's a big man, probably
over 6 feet, broad shoulders, arms straining the sleeves of his
shirt. Even if I could get up, he could probably overpower me,
especially with his accomplice in the room, who I assume is
of a similar size and weight. Again I try to turn my head, forced
instead to shift my eyes to see my other visitor, who obligingly
steps closer, his shadow falling ominously across my face.
The bounty hunter gives me a smile.
End Part 1
Disclaimer, etc in Part 1
*You transmogrifying son of a bitch. I'm going to kill you.*
His smile widens at the ludicrousness of this threat. So far he
has soundly won every encounter we've had.
*Who are you? Why did you take those people?
Why did you take me?*
"So many questions, Mr. Mulder," he says aloud, with a little
tsk tsk sound. "Always the same."
"He can't be blamed for not remembering."
*I've been here before?*
Vader moves into my line of vision and smiles down at me
as if he's just cured me of cancer. "Oh yes, Mr. Mulder.
Although you and I -- and our friend here -- are nearly the
only players left in our little game."
*You're part of the consortium.*
He nods. "*Was.* But they were weak, short-sighted, too
prone to panic. And that cigarette smoking bastard Spender
was convinced he could just murder anyone who got in his way.
A shame he didn't end up dying a slow, painful death from lung
cancer..." He shakes his head. "Their extinction simply allowed
some new terms for an old alliance, a minor adjustment in the
timetable. For all your incessant interference, you did me a favor,
exposing them, taking them out of the picture. They had become
useless, squeamish...too caught up in their own desire for survival
to see the big picture. With them gone, new groundwork can
*Are you going to kill me now?*
"Why should I? He grins -- like a shark. "You won't remember
any of this, Mr. Mulder, just as you can't recall any of our
previous meetings. It's a relatively simple procedure -- if not
an exact science. I believe you experienced something similar
several years ago while investigating activities near Ellens Air
The bounty hunter moves forward.
*No. Please -- Wait --* Suddenly I can't remember what
I was going to say that was so terribly important only seconds
ago. My head feels like someone stuffed it with cotton.
The men staring down at me waver in and out of focus
and I can barely keep my eyes open...And I hear his voice
as if he was at the end of a long tunnel...
"You've already been given the injection."
"Mulder, it's me."
Scully's voice drifts to me through the darkness and I can feel
her hand on mine. This is familiar -- too familiar. Before I'm
fully awake I know something bad has happened. She saves
me the effort of trying to use my foggy brain.
"You're in a hospital near Bellefleur. You were hurt in the
woods, but you're going to be okay." She pauses and I hear
her murmur something to someone else in the room. "Mulder,
can you hear me? Can you squeeze my hand?"
I apply all my focus to my fingers and manage to press them
against hers. Then, because I need to see her, to see her face
to really know how I'm doing, I lift my eyelids, which suddenly
feel like they've got 10 pound weights attached to them. But
the sight that meets my sore eyes is Scully, so what's a little pain?
I'd crawl across the room right now if she asked me to. She
looks concerned, pale, but she gives me a warm smile, not the
tremulous curve of her lips that greets me when I'm still not out
of the woods yet.
The woods. There's something I need to remember about
I shift in the bed and my body screams in protest. I hang on to
Scully's voice, follow it back through the thick fog, and come
back to full consciousness retching into a kidney-shaped silver
bowl. Just the kind of impression a guy wants to make on his
woman. She pushes me back against the pillow easily, her
brow furrowed, in full Dr. Scully mode. Still beautiful. I'll never
know how she does that.
"Mulder, lie still. You've been unconscious for several hours
and you've got some seriously bruised ribs and a broken leg --
not to mention more than your usual number of cuts and abrasions."
Yes, my ribs are still letting me know I have done
something unspeakable to them. I can't feel the leg yet,
but I know from past experience I soon will. I look down
at myself for the first time, feeling as if I'm seeing someone
else's body, covered with scratches and bruises, tiny welts
and something that looks suspiciously like...
"Poison ivy." Scully grabs my hand as I start to scratch.
"Scully..." My voice is weak and raspy. She immediately
holds a straw to my lips and I try not to suck the cool water
down in one gulp. When I'm finished, I sound a little better
than I did just after they vaccuumed tobacco beetles out of
my lungs. "What happened?"
She sits back in her chair for a moment, regarding me
with those serious blue eyes. I can tell she's trying to
decide how much to tell me of what she knows, or how
much she wants to hear of what *I* know. As I'm trying
to unscramble that thought, she asks me a question.
"Why don't you tell me, Mulder. What's the last thing
My head has begun to hurt, a dull throbbing as it matches
time with my heartbeat, but I dutifully reach past the pain
and try to recall the last thing I saw or heard before I woke
Scully gives me an encouraging nod. "He came out to
Bellefleur with you."
"Um...We were driving...." The pain in my head increases,
as if someone is turning a vise clamped to my temples. But
Scully wants to know what I remember. "We stopped. By
the woods." I squeeze my eyes shut. The dim light in the room
has become too bright, like the sun piercing my skull. Moments
later there's a cool, damp cloth on my head.
"Sssh. It's okay. Don't worry about it."
Don't worry about it? I'm missing time. How can someone
break their leg and not know how it happened?
"I need to know, Scully."
She gives a long-suffering sigh. "You and A.D. Skinner
went into the woods to try to locate an alleged downed
craft of some kind. You were setting up the laser grid when...
"Gee, Scully, thanks for filling me in. I feel much better now."
She ignores my sarcasm, as usual. "We suspect there was
some kind of stealth aircraft in the area. Skinner saw a bright
light and the next thing he knew, you had disappeared."
Her words strike a spark, like flint on flint, at the back of
my mind. Something just beyond the borders of my
conscious memory, but it's gone almost immediately.
"From what we can tell, you got out of his direct line of
sight and fell down a pretty steep ravine nearby. In the
darkness, with your black clothing, you would have been
nearly impossible to see. By the time we got a search party
together, you had somehow managed to crawl away from
the site and ended up about a half mile away."
She doesn't look at me as she tells me this story.
"I fell down a ravine only a few feet away and Skinner
didn't hear or see anything? Then I crawled a half a mile
with a broken leg?"
"We've found you under stranger circumstances," she shoots
back. I can't argue with that. Nor do I want to, suddenly
filled with a lassitude that leaves me content just to lie back
and watch the sun glint off Scully's hair...
"Mulder..." she says in that voice half between a purr and
a growl. "Why don't you tell me *your* side of the story?"
I reach back in my memory, but the last thing I clearly
recall is standing in the woods with Skinner, wishing I was
back home with Scully. "Uh...I saw a bright light." Did I
really see it or am I just repeating the standard abduction
story? My head starts to hurt again, almost as if my brain
is posting a "keep out" sign on top of those buried memories.
"They must have done something to me, made me forget."
Scully raises an eyebrow. Just one. I don't know how she
does it. "Are you suggesting you were abducted by aliens
and they threw you down a ravine to cover their tracks?"
It seemed much more plausible before she said it out loud.
"Mulder, you show no physical signs of alie - *alleged* alien
abduction. Believe me, by now I know what to look for."
"What about the others? Billy Miles, Theresa Hoese?
Surely they -"
She shakes her head, the mask of composure slipping
a little. "They're gone, Mulder. There's no trace of them."
At that moment, the door opens and a man enters. He's a
big guy, ex-jock or ex-military, making those normally
shapeless green surgical outfits look fitted on his large frame.
He wears his pale blonde hair in a short, blunt cut and would
be an imposing figure except for the broad smile.
She smiles back, then turns to me. "Mulder, this is Dr. Schmidt.
He's been taking care of you."
Dr. Schmidt picks up the chart and reviews it quickly before
finally acknowledging my presence. "Agent Mulder, nice to
see you awake."
As he turns back to Scully to discuss my condition, I try to
place his accent. German? Swiss? But it's been a busy day
and there's a little man inside me using a pick ax to climb
around on my ribs, so I whimper to get Scully's attention.
A few minutes later the little man and I are on the verge of
unconsciousness. Scully absently strokes my hand as she
talks to Dr. Schmidt. I drift along on the cadence of their
voices, safe in my drug-induced haze.
"No one is safe, Mr. Mulder."
Dr. Schmidt's voice startles me back into wakefulness
and I open my eyes, feeling a sudden chill that has
nothing to do with the thin hospital gown. The monitors
start beeping out warnings as adrenalin momentarily
overtakes the painkillers. Scully winces at the sudden
pressure of my hand on hers.
"Where's Dr. Schmidt?"
"He left five minutes ago, Mulder. What's wrong?"
If I tell her, she'll explain it away as some kind of auditory
hallucination brought on by the drugs or the trauma, and
run another battery of tests to check for concussion. So I
simply smile and shake my head. "Bad dream."
She smiles back and strokes my cheek. "Just relax, Mulder.
Get some sleep.You're safe now."
I want to believe her.
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